"L'obscurité"

It’s really sad how true it is that we chase the ones who ignore us and ignore the ones who adore us. My life at the moment is actually the epitome of that saying. The two guys that I’m not head over heels for text me every day, always calling me babe and flirting with me, and they try so hard to win me over…while the one person I actually want to be with could not seem less interested in me. I know that he has feelings for me but I feel like he’s not in like with me to the degree that I am with him.
I wish we could choose who we fall for, because this hurts like hell to be honest. I keep trying to force myself from pole to pole but it’s really impossible to control these kinds of feelings. I can’t let go of the dream that this guy will fall for me the way I have for him… but he’s that guy that could have literally any girl that he wants, and he knows it. So why the fuck would he tie himself down with me, of all people? I hope that when he officially breaks my heart I can learn to feel about one of the other two people the way they do about me.

(Source: invictified)